CHANGE

Opening of the eye of Change

A head start
A bold decision
A new beginning
A certainity even after being uncertain
A conscious pull from the past
A pledge to be consistent
A promise to be a better human being
A dream to live for
A step towards acceptance
An affirmation to be more humble
An effort to polish your skills
A power to apologise for wrongs
A step towards healing
A kick start to pious intentions

If this isn’t it…
it’s a damage, a distructive force
A dellusional state , a dark arena
The dumbest decision
In all, a complete disaster.

अब उसकी याद…

जो तेरी याद मुझे बार बार आती है
दिल ए गुलज़ार में एक आस देकर जाती है

ना कभी इश्क़ किया था तूने यह तो जानते हैं हम
मगर उस पल की मुला़कात याद आती है

यूं तो हमने छोड़ दिया तुमको याद करना भी
फिर भी दिल में तेरी तस्वीर नज़र आती है।

वादियों में भी ना अब रंग नज़र अते हें
जोश गुम जीड्डो जहद ज़हन के शहज़ादे हे।
यूं तो आशिकों ने हमको बहुत घेरा है
क्या कहें दिल पर दुरुस्त बस उन्हिं का पेहरा है!

तस्साबुर जब कभी तुम्हारा होता हे
ना हो अब इश्क़ कहकर दिल ज़रा सा रोता है।

इन मुस्ससल रंजिशों ने जबसे जकड़ा हे
क्या कहें बक्या ही इतना तगड़ा हे

किस्सा- ए- दरयाफ्त इस तरह कीजिए
हम थे उनमें बहुत मशरूफ तो क्या कीजिए।

गुफ्तगू बड़ती गई
मिलना – मिलाना भी हुआ
शोर गुल दूर कहीं
इश्क़ – ए – झलक सा एक ज़माना भी हुआ।।

एक दिन यूं हुआ कि बात आख़िर छिड़ ही गई
कहां थी दोस्ती तब्दील- ए- आशिक़ी में हुई।।

में हूं तुम में
तुम हो मुझमें
फक्र से मेने कहा
ना मानो पूंछ लो इनसे
मुख्तसर रात- दिन, चांद- तरे हैं गवहा।

में क्या चाहता हूं
इल्म नहीं शायद तुमको
ना आशिक़ी, ना चाहत
वफ़ा से बैर है हमको

यह जो भी है तुम्हारे मेरे दर्मिया
है दोस्ती, मुख्तसर हवस और बेतबियां
जिदंगी ख़ुश नुमा है इस तरह से जीने में
नहीं पड़ना है हमें मोहब्बत के सफीने में।।

फिर तो क्या सुनना था
क्या कहना था ए सोफिया
हो गए बेबरूह एकदम
अपनी राह को बदल दिया

हम शुक्र गुज़ार हैं
सभी बेहतरीन पलों के लिएं
मुद्दा – ए – बुनियाद सच पर रखने के लिएं।।

ठान लिया गम- ए – शिकास्तगी पर ना बिलकुल रोएंगे
हसीं मुस्तकबिल की लातिफ़ माला पिरोएंगे

जाओ तुम ख़ुश रहो, जहां भी जाओ तुम
चाहो तुम जिसको भी , दिल से चाहो तुम।

_सोफिया मलिक

Trust Issues

That stage comes in every creature’s life
when he confronts with many lies

To all he trusted were found to be fake
He turned out as there celebrating cake

When trust gets broken
It breaks you apart
Makes you feeble

numb you by heart

Don’t be gloomy
rather be bloomy
coz this the point
U see things whammy

leave all derth to your dark past
construct a magnificent dom in your ship

Then let this life boat
sailing and congealing
this is what’s called the process of healing

Shower love and forgiveness to all you encounter
Mix happiness and glitters like a compounder

Desires…

Under the crescent white light
In a red dress tight
With the men of my dreams
More then my height

Giving me a ride
Like a sizzling sea tide
His every romantic touch
Making my heart beats twice

Intruding an old place
With all lovable grace
He hugging me tight,
like a little Child
We making all mini memories wild.

I wanna be his…
The happiest niche
Where maah prince rest,
Without worldly glitch

I desire to be his..
White board plain
Where he can write all his hurt and pain.

I want to see him
Reaching great height
And, I should be the reason
Irrespective of cute fights.

Ohh my Prince…
Something beautiful is awaiting
That’s why may be,
Our previous relationship were breaking

You won’t believe
You princess have conceived
A lot of hurt and pain indeed
She gave her best
To her past life test
Yet gained nothing .
but a sour, poky pudding

Let’s meet at a coast
Or somewhere in frost,
With all the impelling zeal
To begin the life reel.

To all the boys who proposed me!

You would be enthralled to read that how arduously I wanted someone to utter those three magical words to me, on my face, with the deep conviction in his eyes, in a humble gesture, with a smile as if he got the most precious  gift he asked for. However, that was not certainly you all. You would not believe how much painful it is to say ‘NO’ because I knew that will going to hurt you to the eternity, to be true I started to feel guilty about myself, I started to feel guilty to talk to you in the past even in the capacity of just friends. I felt guilty to post my some of the stunning pictures on social media because an over thinker like me tried reaching all the reason as to why it made you to fall for me. I felt guilty to post my happy stories on social media, because maybe that made you fall for me.

I too felt guilty to continue my “being genuine friend” notion.

I know, Some of you noticed my silence, my ignorance, my health, my very little action as to what dps I put on what’s app, what post I like , what I share

, when is my birthday, when I am free, When I got a little pimple on my face, when I look beautiful, when I look cute, what cute acts I do, how much I am not unaware of some vulgar words and phrases. What food I prefer the most, what looks good on me and maybe many other things which I left I mentioned.

I indeed wanted someone to notice tiny little habits of me, I wanted him to be my little world, Yes, I wanted him to know my choices as better as I know his or I would have known, I so so wanted to hangout a lot with him, wanted to go on movie dates, wanted to talk out things, wanted to surround my arms over his shoulder and make love to him, wanted to lie on green grass and make some deep conversation but not with all of you.

I went through a  lot of thought process like neither I had late night messy chats with you, neither we hanged out much, nor I was much available but yes maybe available when you needed any help so what was it that made you fall for me?

but again I answered myself love happens out of nowhere as it happened to me with someone else, being on the same pedestal and still denying you all made me melancholy, but I had no choice but to spill out the truth, because that I ought to do as a person and not to keep you under dark hopes and false mirage.

To add on, One of you gifted chocolate on my birthday, another sketched my portrait, followed up with my friends to know about my well being. I am extremely sorry for not matching that spark of romanticism that you had in your heart because I had that spark for someone else.

I know you must have gone through a long healing process, may be for years if you really loved me hard, U must have resisted your temptations of having   a conversation with me a  dozen of times. It’s a great loss to me too that I lost some of you in the capacity of friends because having further conversations with you after your confessions made me uncomfortable more and friendly less.

Towards the end, I am sorry for the rejection but not sorry for the honesty.

EVERY SUBJECT IS CRUCIAL

Hear I wanted to share with you all my one of the experience lately, so right after 10th boards one of our relative asked me for my advice, for his kid, as to what stream he should pursue,

(He did not know that I had commerce stream, he just knew that I had been doing good in my academics since long so he better ask me about his kid too… )

So his kid scored between the range of 80 to 90%, after telling me all the relevant information he said,’’ I think that my kid should choose science because, commerce and Humanities are for low grade students.’’

Guess what, I was awestruck and what my ears heard is the mentality of almost 90%of Indians.

However, This shouldn’t be the scenario. I have numerous of examples where people did not choose science stream just because they scored well, fortunately I am one of them and I entirely proud of my choices so far without any guilt to follow my heart, I had the desire to do something in the field of commerce and finance, something in entrepreneurship so I headed with my choice to choose commerce. Like every Indian parents my parents too wanted me to choose science initially, so do my teachers as I scored 10/10 CGPA.

Being genuine to the roots, am not boasting about myself but I just want to put forward the fact that no stream is less or more everything has it’s equivalent significance,

To emphasize more, I want to mention one of my friend, Who happily choose Humanities even after scoring 10CGPA, because she wanted  to go in to policy Making, she wanted to do something in social sector and to land her hand in framing the economy of the country.

 This bashing for art side and commerce background is an utter disrespect to half of the people working in other sector and not specifically in science.

Anyone, who earns, generates an income, have to consult a CA every year at least once unless he has to face warnings and troubles from the Revenue Department of the country.

Tell me honestly, who doesn’t need a lawyer when its a deep imbedded case with a lot of argumentation involved.

As much we need the vaccine for covid-19 , so so much we need  people to plan the other course of actions such as how it has to be distributed?, people are required to calculate the budget for the same, people are required to issue guidelines. To add on, as many numbers a  CA and commerce student calculate all through their academic life, even if 1%of that amount gets credited in to your account, You might can become a millionaire.

Hope I became successful to a certain level in adding  value to these crucial disciplines.

Oats Namkeen

let’s learn something new and completely healthy,

Namkeen from oats grains, so here we go
are you ready?

1) Buy a packate of oats from a confectionery shop

2)Roast them up in two or three spoons of Desi ghee

3) Stir that up properly, untill the oats become brown

4)Sprinkle maggie Masala, Garam Masal, and salt.

5) Add little lemon juice on the spot and some chopped vegetables while serving

So that’s it, amazingly home made Namkeen with lots of health benefits.

How to overcome that heavy feeling?

Well,  let’s  talk about  how difficult  it is to speak when all you feel is a heavy heart pumping  gigantically  and your neck feels gutted with uprooted anguish  and disguised. You feel like the whole weight  on you,  You feel like not doing anything,  You just  want to sit back  somewhere  un uninterrupted ,  being lost and forget  about  the whole ambience around.

Further,  It feels heavy to discuss  things,  to find someone  reasonably  understandable  enough  to vent out all that’s  eating  you inside making you hollow and still for hours,  for weeks,  for years  in fact.

Thus, Keeping everything  aside,  I just wanted  to tell you that you are much more stronger then what your pains are,  these trivial  things should  not stop you from living, and experiencing  all the bounties that life and future  has in store  for you. There is an another angle to life too, which you have lost the track of,  their lives bliss,  self-contentment,  and the luxury  of happiness.

Go peep in to it, find your solace, because no one can make you do that until you want to do yourself.

Here I explored some of the ways to surpass the unwelcomed pain giving intruders who overpower our brain and make us feel useless and negative about our self.

1)Whenever  the situation  of stillness arise  try standing  up and do a random  stuff or any activity  which comes  to your mind, like go take you clothes  out from wardrobe and start trying  them up, it is not insane it’s  therapy  and it works,  or go sit beside  a small kid,  or an old person  they have a lot to discuss which can make you forget what’s going on in your brain. Well, these are only some Ideas ,in fact, you can have a hell lot of activities to pick or whatever  gives you satisfaction

Reminder don’t  always  feel guilty  for not being productive for that time being when what all you are doing is to take a step towards being productive because  for being productive  you should  be mentally  present, thus,  measure  your presence  in the moment rather being somewhere  physically  and nowhere  mentally

2)Open a comedy  show on TV,  on Phone,  and book one if it’s  manageable  and affordable but don’t  let yourself  be the victim  of what’s  already  ruining you.

3)Try counting  people on whom you can count on,  suddenly  you will  realize that there are so many people  out there to give their ears to what you talk,  what you say,  what you discuss.  Apparently you won’t feel alone  ,fighting  your own battles with some of unseen demons.

4)Try and repeat  the fact that some things  aren’t  meant  to be no matter  how much best  you try,  but they don’t  turn out in your favour.  Thus, letting go of things is peaceful , better  and calm in long run.

5)When we stick  on to the things we stick to them for  too much long that it becomes  difficult  to come out  from that  vicious circle,  and we forget  the fact that life is intriguing  in its own ways.

6)Eventually  you will meet the people who are tired  of the games too and their loyalty  will match yours,  until then laugh  at your confusions,  ponder  on to your unique  self, put yourself  first.

Why you shouldn’t stop when you feel like stopping everything?

It’s pretty scary to know that people go through some life situations which make them still for a while, for years, for life infact, they just exist and forget living  the way they used to back then.

So to all those gloomy souls Who are just existing and left their cheers in an unknown corner of their hearts which they don’t want to get back to because  it’s even difficult to live again, it’s difficult to forget what they have gone through, it’s difficult to bring back that old cheerful you.

So here I tell you why you should make an effort to search your happiness which you lost over the time, whatever happened has happened already  you can’t change that but you can change what’s going to happen to you next, you can change the direction of your life boat. You are the manager  of your life boat make it a great cruise because, at the end you should matter the most to yourself.

Further, taking a break is okay even much needed to move on, however, delving in to the deep past and emotional hurt again and again can’t reduce it. Instead it intensifies.

I know a lady who went through a heartbreak and how long she waited for the man she loved , Then I also know a child who lost his father in an accident and how much he changed later , Things never transform in the way they used to be.They just alter and none has a control on them, try taking them as one side aspect and not the whole problem. For example if a lady was hurt that’s the only problem she had and the rest was in the normal pace, she had friends, she had her family, she was doing well in her academic life. Thus, she should have been greatful for what was in place , not what had fallen apart and broken, this is only the one aspect which wasn’t fixed rest all was awesome in its place.

I know our heart and brain don’t stop for even a while thinking about what has gone wrong with us however , In order to live life some wrongs has to be part and parcel, that’s what make some rights valuable and worthy to fall in to place.

Also, there was one girl who suddenly came across an Instagram account of another girl, she kept on watching everything on the feed then the stories she shared daily, apparently she become her secret admirer within few months, not only this, it become her daily habit to go through her account no matter how busy she had been the whole day. To add on, by Co- incidence that Instagrammer was going through the same life situations as the girl was, she had a break up with her boyfriend or you can say she was apparently unloved by the same person who loved her with full bounds somewhere in the past. Thus ,dealing this situation is non less then chewing the iron nuts but still, you have to accept the reality and move on, for yourself, for your peace, for self care and self gratification,

The way that instagrammer replicated and faced the situations made  that girl strong enough to overcome what she had been going through.

Now think about the situation where that Instagrammer would have stopped everything because she went through a situation which involved an excruciating pain but still she kept going for her followers and apparently that girl who never knew her in person neither she to her. Despite that, the girl got inspired , got guts to face the odds, to keep moving, to keep spreading positivity and optimism.

Towards the end never make your worth too low, you never know who you are inspiring, who all out there getting a spark from what you practice. Be cheerful, Be strong.

Shahi Namkeen Tukde Recipe

Here I was experimenting with my culinary skills
I thought of a new recipe from chapaties/Roties, you can use stale chapaties too because once they are cooked nobody likes to eat them in the next morning

So ingredients required are
1) Oil/Refined oil- two Spoons
2)Garam Masala – 1tps
3) chilly powder – according to the taste
4) Turmeric powder -1tps
5) Garlic Onion paste – two big spoons
6) Salt- According to taste
7) coriander Powder- 1spoon
8) Crumps of Chapaties
9) chopped vegetables
10)Cumin seeds

Procedure:-
Convert the chapaties it to medium sized crumps. Reminder* -don’t make the crumps too small.
Further,
Take a pan split 2 spoons oil on it,
Add 1 tps cumin seeds
Wait untill they turn brown then add Garlic Onion powder. Along with it, add all the Masala, such as Turmeric powder, Garam Masala, Chilly powder and salt.
Roast the whole paste untill masala leaves it’s generic smell and turn brown. Finally, add the crumps and the chopped vegetables and 2 cups of water to boil the vegetables.

Let the recipe cook for 10 minutes more. then, you can serve shahi Namkeen tukde by splitting lemon Juince on the top.

It taste great, go go try👸✨🤤🤤img_20200406_112451-1